This morning in the Heart Breathing Moving Meditation,
the thought arose, 'Where is my allegiance?'
Then the words flowed into a Pledge of Allegiance:
I pledge allegiance to the Essence
of the united state of the Actual,
and to the qualities for which it stands,
One Being before God, indivisible, with
empowerment, presence and transcendence for all.
The realization came that I am here not to subvert the Matrix, but to transcend it.
One of the '8 Components of Heart Breathing' is self inquiry. Upon re-reading the '8 Components' post, I would substantially change my wording now. My writing often does not keep up with my own process, and sometimes gets ahead of it.
Anyway, self inquiry in a personal journal is a way to 'measure' the effectiveness of Heart Breathing. Yesterday I felt disrupted by something and reacted with the thought, 'Yes, I would call that disruption.'
Then the inner voice asked, "What is disrupted?" and I responded, with humility, "Only the 'who I am' is disrupted. The 'What I am' cannot be disrupted. I choose to live from Essence, from What I am." Then the feeling of being disrupted dissolved.
While gazing reflectively at the lake in our neighborhood, two black Pit Bull type dogs barked and ran towards me. I was sitting on a stone in the sunshine and did not react within, but when one came close, not knowing if it would bite, my elbow went up in the air defensively and knocked it in the head.
I felt pretty good about myself for not feeling fear, but later realized with Kati's help that an authentic response would have been to trust fully in Essence and not defend myself, as the 'who I am' did not know if the dog was friendly or not. I know intuitively that trusting in Essence in such situations can be 'miraculously' effective and boost my frequency.
I choose to effectively live from the 'what I am' and not give in to the 'who I am.' Only the 'who I am' is influenced by the Matrix. Therefore, how I am affected or not is my responsibility.
It is not to allow others to trample me, but to stay in trust, in Essence, so I know they won't.
The 'who I am' transcends the Matrix to live as the 'what I am.'
I pledge also to speak and write of what I choose to be actualized, what is authentic, uplifting and inspiring, as a creator.
One of the realizations (again with Kati's help) which prompted me to re-write the 'Spiritual Empowerment' post is that quoting Google and Christians is not empowering. Another is that my residual bitterness towards Christianity is still to be transcended.
If I were to read the Whole Human blog as a refined critic, I would probably delete most of it as it does not fully reflect my choices to promote 'union, not division' and to write what I choose to create rather than against anything. Much of my older writing is dualistic, polarizing and unaware of the whole picture.
In general a stand against something is the weaker position wherein no one wins, whereas a stand for the right something tends to be more ennobling, enriching, a stronger position and in the end, a win-win. In the larger picture, the Matrix may be seen as an ally rather than an enemy, as it is by transcending the Matrix that the 'who I am' is transcended to the 'what I am.'
I will apply these standards to my writing to the best of my ability, asking myself:
1. Does my writing support union or division?
2. What is my attention giving energy to?
3. Am I being reactive or responsive?
4. Am I writing from 'who I am' or 'what I am'?
5. Is my writing spacious so readers can expand?
6. Is my writing from intellect or from heart intelligence?
7. Am I practicing and effectively embodying what I write?
Sometimes it seems okay to write ahead of living my words, as a creator making choices. Self awareness and honesty are the key elements. I trust that living, embodying my words, will catch up!
Sometimes when re-writing a post, it feels as though I am re-writing myself. It is as though publishing new realizations in a Whole Human post furthers the process of evolution and embodiment in me.
Thanks for 'listening'!