Practice — A Personal Synthesis
March 21, 2017
This morning the skies are gray, but I am feeling sunny.
The past few days included an episode which deserves its own story:
This week while walking with Aura, my Siberian Husky friend, near a neighborhood lake, a car pulled up and the driver asked me if I had seen a teen-aged girl in a silver car. The girl had been missing for two days.
After this, I wondered why this happened. Why did the driver and I make that brief connection at that particular time and location? I asked within and got no answer.
Two days later, at the gas station the headline of a local paper caught my eye – 'Coarsegold teen found dead in car.' – and I learned that the girl's mom had died recently of cancer, followed by the death of her father with whom she was close. She had driven into the lake to end her life.
Having had experience with releasing earthbound souls before, I did again. Was there anything to it? To me there was, and that is all that matters.
Vernal equinox in the northern hemisphere was yesterday, and whether by significance or coincidence, it seems that seeds – some long planted – began to germinate both figuratively and literally.
My personal synthesis for psycho-spiritual evolution is already budding after what seems a long process of nurturing the seeds of longing in my heart.
What that means is there has been in recent weeks a series of discoveries and realizations which I could not have planned so elegantly, leading to well-formed ideas of my highest potential and practices which support its manifestation.
The longing for a practice led me from Deep Listening to Seven Octaves Pranayama, to the Quantum Human, to the Desteni process, to re-starting the Five Tibetan Rites, to the Isha Kriya of Sadhguru.
The greatest thing that you can do in life is to live to your peak and to set an example that there is a way to live beyond all limitations. – Sadhguru
I have long understood that deep, slow breathing is central to the practice of growing in awareness, yet until recently it has been a point of resistance. When I focused on it, I found my breathing was fast and shallow. It was difficult to make smooth longer inhalations and exhalations, and was 'hard work.' Then, I started using an inversion table to alleviate pinched nerves in the upper cervical and lower lumbar and started smoking cannabis to lesson the pain. When I smoked and then inverted, my body wisdom took over and I began naturally breathing deep into the diaphragm, filling to the top of the lungs, exhaling like a pinched balloon slowly released, and pressing the stomach to the spine (Breathe Deep, Fly High.)
I no longer have to smoke and invert to breath deep and long and the Isha Kriya of Sadhguru adds elements to deep breathing which make it far more potent for realizing oneself as awareness and not the body, not even the mind. I am not a follower of any single teaching or technique, as each is incomplete, but apply selected pieces from many to my daily practice.
The literal germination mentioned in the first paragraph refers to cannabis seeds sprouting this week, and a backyard of herbs, flowers and flowering shrubs which are leafing, budding, blooming and growing in the glory of early springtime.
My recommendation to anyone who has longings similar to mine described is to be guided from within, to experience various practices which are attractive, to pick elements which speak to you, and form your own personal synthesis.
This page links to videos and PDF downloads which can give a boost to nurturing your own growth. If you find it helpful, please share.
In search of a practice to support the actualization of my highest potential, I found a yoga meditation and experimented with it. In the Isha Kriya of Sadhguru, the practitioner breathes with the specified thoughts:
'I am not the body.'
'I am not even the mind.'
I practiced this meditation over the past few days and experienced it as separating and contracting rather than merging and expanding. Asking within, I replaced those thoughts with:
'I am this moment.'
'This moment is all there is.'
This is part of my on-going exploration, experimentation and evolution.