INTRO
More than any other contributing factor, my neurology has shaped the person i appear to be.
What would now be termed the maladaptive behavior of my childhood and teens was rooted in the then-undiagnosed high sensitivity, misophonia and ASD1 (Asperger's) of my neurology.
It wasn't until my 60s, during the life assignment as houseparent with my wife of six at-risk teenaged boys that i learned the term 'misophonia' and began to recognize traits of Asperger's in myself. It took another almost ten years to accept the limitations of my Asperger's brain. Increasing symptomatic behaviors in an aging body made it more evident.
Turns out, i'm not the person i thought i was. It's all okay, as realization has also dawned that 'I' am not my neurology.
The i of the temporal person and the I of the eternal soul are distinct from each other and my deepest association is with the I which was before this body was formed and continues after its dissolution.
Before the great escape from the neurological prison of this body occurs, some things still have to be faced.
Facing the challenges and shadows has been my lifelong journey although the words weren't there for most of the way, to describe it. Tools 🛠 i created have been partially helpful, increasing in effectiveness. My latest combines conventional stretches by YouTube instructors with my breathing visualizations, below ⬇️.
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More than any other contributing factor, my neurology has shaped the person i appear to be.
What would now be termed the maladaptive behavior of my childhood and teens was rooted in the then-undiagnosed high sensitivity, misophonia and ASD1 (Asperger's) of my neurology.
It wasn't until my 60s, during the life assignment as houseparent with my wife of six at-risk teenaged boys that i learned the term 'misophonia' and began to recognize traits of Asperger's in myself. It took another almost ten years to accept the limitations of my Asperger's brain. Increasing symptomatic behaviors in an aging body made it more evident.
Turns out, i'm not the person i thought i was. It's all okay, as realization has also dawned that 'I' am not my neurology.
The i of the temporal person and the I of the eternal soul are distinct from each other and my deepest association is with the I which was before this body was formed and continues after its dissolution.
Before the great escape from the neurological prison of this body occurs, some things still have to be faced.
Facing the challenges and shadows has been my lifelong journey although the words weren't there for most of the way, to describe it. Tools 🛠 i created have been partially helpful, increasing in effectiveness. My latest combines conventional stretches by YouTube instructors with my breathing visualizations, below ⬇️.
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Cassandra Syndrome describes the symptoms of an NT (neurotypical) partner of an AS (Asperger's) person.
Breathe Light.
Release Tension.
Breathe Faith.
Release Presence.
Breathe Light (Inhale).
Expand awareness beyond matter to energy.
Shift conscious attention from particles to waves.
Deeply breathe felt energy into the body.
Feel where tension is held.
Release Tension (Exhale).
Relax the muscles, letting tightness go.
Breathe Faith (Inhale).
All is vibration, and faith a frequency.
Expand awareness beyond the intellect to the greater.
Inhale the energy of faith.
Release Presence (Exhale).
The essence of the greater is the presence of love.
Feel the presence releasing to the world.