I REMEMBER....

SUMMARY: Connecting the dots of memory to understand the present, change the future, and smooth the awakening process. About 700 words.

An exercise from the Memoir Writing course begins by writing 'I Remember'. Here's mine:

I remember...
a psychic medium telling me in a reading that 'the other side' is aware of my physical challenges. The unseen guides say the issues are caused by vibrational dissonance between my spirit and body.

I remember that years before the reading, my Dad wrote that as a newborn, my screams could be heard above all the cries of other infants in the maternity ward. He was responding to my request for any insights into my experience with misophonia.

An article in the Medical Daily says, '...Images from MRI scans showed that people with misophonia (who are triggered by certain sounds such as eating noises) suffer from an abnormality in their emotional control systems.... researchers noted that abnormal connections, and greater amounts of myelination (the brain’s insulation) in people with misophonia indicate a physical difference in their brains....'

I remember my first instance of being triggered by eating sounds, at five years of age. The article describes so clearly a condition which deeply impacted my life. Still, an MRI scan revealing a physical difference in the brain does not tell the whole story.

I remember mailing a hair sample to T. Lobsang Rampa, the psychic author of 'The Third Eye' and other esoteric books, on my search for a solution to what I called 'hyper-sensitive hearing' — before the medical world gave it the name misophonia.

I remember multiple visits to an acupuncturist to address muscle pain and stiffness, and being told my Chi flow is low. Acupuncture approaches pain as resulting from blockages in the body's Chi flow. Developing my own theories, it seems inflammation can result from the stagnation of the low flow of Chi, which normally nourishes the cells. Underlying the low flow and inflammation, perhaps, is emotional resistance. That gives me something to 'work' on, to compensate for vibrational dissonance by bridging the gap with greater acceptance of what is, and what I call 'extending connection'.

I remember taking an online self-test and realizing that my characteristics as an HSP (Highly Sensitive Person) and Empath are also due to brain differences.

I remember when the ringing in my ears first appeared some years ago. At that time tinnitus, like misophonia, was largely a medical mystery. Today it is often listed as an ascension symptom.

In recent days the incessant ringing grew louder, compelling me to research further. The search led to new findings that the sound is not in the ears but in the brain -- and is caused by inflammation. The studies link anxiety to the same physical root cause.

I remember a mental health professional telling me misophonia is an anxiety disorder.

I remember a hypnotist suggesting (in session) the cause of the high sensitivity is a past life experience.

​I remember a psychiatrist diagnosing it as an obsessive compulsive behavior disorder.

No doubt the symptoms are exacerbated in cycles by such things as cosmic alignments. Simple answers rarely address complex problems, but I see pieces of a puzzle that seem to fit together. Also I see that each professional could only view it from their trained partial perspective.

Connecting the dots of my remembering motivates me to explore new solutions, such as a potent formula for 'squashing' brain inflammation. At the same time, my focus can be expanded past symptoms, their causes, and routes for relief — and balanced with deep breathing and positive imagery of the desired state of health and vitality.

​I remember a comment to one of my group posts saying it may be possible to shift between particle and wave existence. All the causes of symptoms found relate to my particle or physical state. They don't touch my essential-wave state as the One Being in divine duality. Still, while in the body as it is, I am experiencing an expansion and deepening of awareness, and symptoms are one of the challenges to be faced.

When remembering turns to sentimentality or missing something which cannot be recovered or repaired, it can be counter-productive towards spiritual awakening. This writing exercise helps me as a tool for connecting the dots and smoothing the rough edges of the acclimatization process in these times of great change.

​Feedback is invited and appreciated.

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From the Memoir Writing course:

"This exercise is a popular one largely because it is both simple and powerful, very much like the book that inspired it: 'I Remember' by Joe Brainard.

"Brainard’s book is nothing but a list of phrases beginning with the words, 'I remember.'

"I remember not being able to pronounce 'mirror.'

"I remember the exact moment, during communion, that was the hardest to keep from smiling. It was when you had to stick out your tongue and the minister laid the white wafer on it.

"I remember butter and sugar sandwiches.

"In small groups, the phrases might not add up to much, but what is surprising is the complexity of the self-portrait that begins to form as the sentences begin to tackle larger subjects and reveal aspects of the writer's internal life. The book's not for everyone, but it's become a cult classic, and the exercise can be done in one of two ways:

"1. Use the words 'I remember' as a jumping off point. It might sound too simple to be worth doing, but try it. You'll be amazed what can be lodged in the subconscious beneath the words, 'I remember...'

"2. Do what Joe Brainard did and write a list of phrases beginning with the words, 'I remember.' See if one memory opens another, and if that one opens another after another after another after another...

"Have fun with this. And don't dismiss it for its simplicity. The most powerful portals are often very small and humble.

"Just start and see where it takes you:

"I remember..."

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From an online course of instruction:

Epigenetics and the Brain: How Trauma Affects Gene Expression by Dan Siegel, MD.

"Why systemic inflammation could be directly linked to how trauma impacts the brain..."

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COMMENTS (ON THE POST ABOVE)

Dana Herman
Wow, this is powerful. I've done an I remember exercise before, but it was for a targeted memory. This is interesting as many events which may have otherwise remained isolated were allowed to surface and perhaps collectively provide answers. Tinnitus as a self soothing event in the brain. I'd never considered that before.
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Dee Busch
Gary R. Smith, lots to think about in your post. I'm particularly interested in the tinnitus: mine started 30 years ago in a spiritual workshop with a Buddhist Nun. I always sensed it had something to do with Spirituality, but have never figured out, or been told, what. I'm not sure the definition of Ascension that you are using, but it gives me something to think about.

Chi: are they symptoms caused by a lack of flow or is the flow restricted by the cause? Chicken or egg? My healing has ALL come when I've discovered the psychological/emotional/spiritual cause--IOW, how the mind/beliefs manifest in the body.

Keep remembering.

​Gary Smith
​Beautiful! So interesting and informative. As to your question, all I can say now is humans are complex, and nothing is fixed or linear. I am inclined to believe that my initial resistance to coming into this world is a foundational root cause of inflammation, which is the underlying primary cause of my allergies, misophonia, and tinnitus. But that doesn't dispute the truth of tinnitus as an ascension symptom. My main work is to transform my emotional resistance to deep acceptance and compassion, which equates to or parallels ascension.

May I add your comment to my post?

Kiva Fecteau
I first remember my tinnitus showing up when I was enrolled in a multi-year course in energy healing. When a guide showed up to aid me in the work, the rushing sound in my right ear intensified. This happened pretty consistently, so I had what to me was conclusive evidence of why it was happening.

​Gary Smith
​Very interesting. Ditto my reply above, to you:

Humans are complex, and nothing is fixed or linear. I am inclined to believe that my initial resistance to coming into this world is a foundational root cause of inflammation, which is the underlying primary cause of my allergies, misophonia, and tinnitus. But that doesn't dispute the truth of tinnitus as an ascension symptom. My main work is to transform my emotional resistance to deep acceptance and compassion, which equates to or parallels ascension.

I agree, tinnitus can have a spiritual correlation. Mine started when I was in Fuessen, Bavaria. Its intensity increases with stress.

Annie Lockerbie Newton
Thanks Gary for posting this! What an interesting story you have here. I love the way you piece together parts of the puzzle through your memories. I was curious out what happened when you were five? What did it feel like to be triggered and what happened? Perhaps that would be a detail you could expand on in this piece. I love the contrast you used when you talk first about how tinnitus is “an ascension symptom” and then right after, talk about how a mental health professional said it was an anxiety disorder. It really expresses the contradictions and confusion that can be found when we seek to know the reason why we are the way we are. You take us along on this journey of discovery and further understanding so well. Thanks for sharing!

​Gary
Yes, I hope to convey that even though the writing is very first person, the story is universal in that each of us has one.

There's a bit of a conflict to know who this is written for, as it is deeply personal. So I am delighted to read response in groups where it's posted, that it really touched people and inspired their own 'I remember' exercise.

Without boring details, what I remember from five is sitting at the dining room table with my family and feeling disturbed by the eating sounds. Cringing from the feeling of being crunched. A mental/emotional/physical pain that is injurious -- just from being exposed to normal human noises! How different the story reads when viewed from hindsight! Thank you for your feedback.

Lau RA
I think, and this could be a whole new topic stemming from this - that this exercise helps me with remembering events from my childhood that my diagnosis of PTSD and its symptoms has prevented me from "remembering" naturally.

This way, what you described to do above, helps it "flow" from your "spirit's memory," if feels! I started by writing "I remember" and then heard (via clairaudience) "the taste on my lips" (may have been help from a spirit guide). I wrote that out and then started having visions of the times we would pick strawberries during the summer with my mother as children. We would come home, wash the berries, and then dip them in sugar.

I, then started remembering my childhood dog who was around during that time and began writing details about my dog and what he looked like and the bond we had. It brought up some emotions I did not know were still there, and I began to cry a little. I had to pause, but I will continue this exercise during the day today - as I find it fundamental to keeping the mind in-tact.

I have an entire bank full of memories waiting to be tapped into, still; and I believe this will be helpful in revealing what those are, in time; as a lot of memories from my childhood have been "blocked" due to my sister's death back in 2009. I was 26 at the time. My brain seemed to have had a severe impact because of the tragic event, almost as if I had been in a very bad accident and had a brain injury or something! This makes me sad, still, as I write and have tears in my eyes.

My memories in my childhood, well; some were lost with her death over the years, as I tried to cope. I am ready to start remembering some of those memories again! Thank you for this. Sincerely! ~ Laura ~

Gary
Thank you for sharing your story. I know the pain of loss from the death of loved ones. Even knowing there is no death in actuality does not always ease the pain. So glad to read that the exercise is helpful. May I add your comment to my post?
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​Story Deja Dae
I remember being told when I was.giving a lady a reading
I am the psychic
She was a client with misophonia
she asked if it could be cleared or cured
I remember her higher self and her angelic guides saying it was totally curable with proper NUTRITIOn
I thought how interesting since it was other people eating that triggered it

I sign for sure for her.to realign with her own PROPER NUTRITIONAL PLAN
her guidance in the reading
Was to embark on fully detoxing her entire body
By consuming ALL FRUIT ONLY FOR 14 WEEKS
and to start out with grapes on week 1
And end with grapes on the week 13 and 14
eating blending juicing.All the fruit she wanted every day
Until the brain and nervous system could be fully.RESET
and
then after that she was to.add back in 1 raw vegatable a week
Each week switching to a different tasty raw veggies
Until she had successfully reintegrated being able to consume raw fruits n veggies in any combination

But was also guided that if the misophonia symptoms or any other trauma related phobias came back
She was to immediately get back on ALL FRUIT until the triggers dissapered
This new way of eating changed her life
Immediately
And she is now a raw vegan
With zero signs of misophonia and she loves to see and hear others munching on fruit
SMACK SMAK NOM NOM NOM

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